“So I do not pray. I accept the means at my disposal for working out my destiny. It seems to me that I have been given a mind and will-power for that very purpose. I do not expect God to single me out and grant me advantages over my fellow men. Prayer is for those who need it. Prayer seems to me a cry of weakness, and an attempt to avoid, by trickery, the rules of the game as laid down. I do not choose to admit weakness. I accept the challenge of responsibility. Life, as it is, does not frighten me, since I have made my peace with the universe as I find it, and bow to its laws.”

Zora Neale Hurston


“Somewhere along the line, our generation listened to the Sleepless in Seattle and the Runaway Bride philosophies that say love is beyond our control. We believe love is destiny and consists of butterflies in our stomach and passionate kisses in the backseat at Lover’s Leap. And in the process we forgot what love really is. We forgot that love is what remains when all of that fades away. We forgot that love keeps on loving even when it hurts to do so. Love keeps on loving through depression, through illness and poverty.”

Lewis once said that love is only a feeling and feelings come and go. You must learn to let go of the feeling and grasp what’s deeper. How does one know that this love is the true and life long love? It’s a choice, it’s intuition–the power of human intuition is simply knowing. Having more than the intensity of faith but loving with your soul despite all.

We are humans influenced and created by love.

I choose love.

And I choose you.


Oh, it’s a mystery to me
We have a greed with which we have agreed
And you think you have to want more than you need
Until you have it all you won’t be free

Society, you’re a crazy breed
Hope you’re not lonely without me

When you want more than you have
You think you need
And when you think more than you want
Your thoughts begin to bleed
I think I need to find a bigger place
Because when you have more than you think
You need more space

Society, you’re a crazy breed
Hope you’re not lonely without me
Society, crazy indeed
Hope you’re not lonely without me

There’s those thinking, more-or-less, less is more
But if less is more, how you keeping score?
Means for every point you make, your level drops
Kinda like you’re starting from the top
You can’t do that

Society, you’re a crazy breed
Hope you’re not lonely without me
Society, crazy indeed
Hope you’re not lonely without me

Society, have mercy on me
Hope you’re not angry if I disagree…
Society, crazy indeed
Hope you’re not lonely without me

Fringe: "Midnight"

Walter: That makes one of us; little memory loss is often kind to the soul.

Nicholas: Is that figure of speech or do you believe there is such a thing? The soul?

Walter: There are days when I wish I did and there are days when I wish I didn’t.

Nicholas: I often wake up at night, frighten, with the understanding that there are things that man shouldn’t know. And the scientific trespasses that I have committed…

Walter: …will one day be judged…we often debate this very thing…if indeed there is as a soul then we must consider then that there is still time for redemption. You’re not being whole enough to be judged yet.

Paranormal: True or False?

Sometime last year, Ryan stumbled upon season 1 of Paranormal State and we have actually continued to watch every episode since. Have you seen this show? Of course like all scare-you-shitless shows it has the element of suspense to attract a large viewing audience, but also appreciates that the “activity” could be explained.

I’ve always been attracted to the unexplained, but of course I am a huge skeptic when watching shows like Paranormal State. The first line is the founder, Ryan Buell, stating that as a child he experienced paranormal activity and has “been searching for answers ever since.” When Buell attended Pennsylvania State University, he met others that were equally interested in the paranormal and started the Paranormal Research Society. In earlier shows we’re given tidbits of information about Ryan’s past such as his involvement with cases in the Catholic Church and these cases have drastically changed his outlook on his paranormal research. I’m still baffled with several questions about the show, but recognize that it’s only a show and this has made them celebrities in the paranormal realm so what skeptical questions I have, well, doesn’t hold much.

Have you ever experienced something that defies science? I can recall only one moment in my life, but it’s not about seeing ghosts or hearing voices, no, I was more attuned to my feelings running through my veins that evening. I was young and this was my first play that I actually had a big role. I was playing young orphan Molly in Annie Warbucks and I opened the first scene in the second Act. I was standing stage right and settling my nerves, when I began to experience this horrible feeling. I began to shake and thought I was going to be sick, I just knew something had gone wrong. The music began to play and the curtain opened and I instinctly finished the show with this strong feeling in the back of my mind. Later that night I was told that my parents had to leave before the second Act because my brother had suffered a grand mal seizure.

I had no explanation, but a feeling. Is the paranormal only a feeling? Really? Can you believe in a gut feeling? And I can’t help but bring religion into this equation. It seems more times than not, the team on Paranormal State are dealing with “evil forces,” and they begin every dead time with a prayer of protection. It seems that it’s always the battle between the good vs. the evil and the client’s adamantly agree. I have yet to see a show that doesn’t revolve around a prayer and sometimes a priest. Is the paranormal merely a psychological manifestation of grasping something beyond ourselves? If one can’t cope with the possibility that nothing exists beyond ourselves, do we create the feelings that someone is watching us because that gives us hope?

I have yet to witness paranormal activity and almost dare it upon me—make a believer out of me.